I came across this blurry photo recently and cried. I remember when it was taken. I remember what was happening in our lives and I cried because of what we went through and how much I miss Austin now. On April 1 last year, it was as though someone hit pause on our lives.… Continue reading This Time Is Different
I have been angry at God. I have not wanted His will. And I have been wrestling with Him for many years now. Through unexplained illness and an unthinkable diagnosis, I fought the Lord. In the prodding of too many needles, bad test results and needless suffering, I have questioned Him. I have wondered where… Continue reading Wrestling with God and Grief
“And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.” Romans 8:28 ESV In Christian circles, this verse gets thrown around a lot – especially when something bad happens and we don’t understand why. It feels like anytime a Christian asks… Continue reading Not What You Expected
“And the word of the LORD will be to them precept upon precept, precept upon precept, line upon line, line upon line, here a little, there a little, that they may go, and fall backward, and be broken, and snared, and taken.” Isaiah 28:13 Where did I go wrong, Lord? Wasn’t it Your voice… Continue reading He Wants My Heart More Than My Hands
Day 7: July 13, 2017 But if I say I’ll never mention the LORD or speak in his name, his word burns in my heart like a fire. It’s like a fire in my bones! I am worn out trying to hold it in! I can’t do it! Jeremiah 20:9 NLT It’s been seven straight… Continue reading Writing is My Therapy
Day 6: July 12, 2017 From my childhood, I have heard the story of Shadrach, Meshach, Abednego and the fiery furnace. As an adult, I thought I knew everything there was to know about it, and quite frankly, I felt like I had outgrown it. Until I heard someone highlight the verse that would later… Continue reading A Childhood Story Revisited
Even If Day 5: July 11, 2017 On March 3, 2017, we found out there was a spot on Austin’s brain that may be a new tumor. A little over a month later, days before Easter, the doctor called to tell us that it was indeed a relapse of his medulloblastoma – brain cancer. The… Continue reading Even If
Day 1: July 7, 2017 I have been holding back my words. It has been months since I have written a blog post – since before we found out Austin’s cancer had relapsed. I wrote in the “waiting,” but then when we knew, I just couldn’t bring myself to write. I couldn’t put anything into… Continue reading The Writing Challenge
“Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, rejoice.” Philippians 4:4 ESV1 The sun rose bright and early on this beautiful Monday morning. But it’s still a Monday, and if you know me at all, you know Monday’s aren’t really my thing. I feel groggy from the activities of the weekend and stare down… Continue reading Can I Be Thankful Today?
Ok, so I try to avoid super controversial topics on here . . . Not because I am avoiding the truth, but because I think some discussions are better had face to face. But right now, as I’m reading through some posts made by some very popular Christian authors, I’m grieved. And I’m wondering .… Continue reading Can a Christian #PrayForOrlando?